‘I wanted to live but found myself dying
And when I tried to smile
I found myself crying
There are those worse off, I hear people say
But to me the optimism had terribly failed’
There are the first five lines of poem number eight. And despite the despair in those lines, it’s not about suicide. Far from it.
Wrote this one in college.
I let my Kindle lie on a pile of clothes and didn’t try to make the picture pretty. Because life isn’t always aesthetically pleasing. Most times, it’s messier than we want it to be. And sometimes, we completely lose control. And when things come to that, we might as well learn to savour the chaos.
For the full poem, you could get a copy of “Death & Darker Realms” on Amazon. It’s a collection of 40 poems dealing with themes like death, depression & dysfunctional relationships.
Following are the links – (the paperback is available on Amazon.com)
Please check your country’s Amazon if I haven’t listed it or just on your kindle/kindle app.